Monday, August 26, 2013

So we had our appointment Today at 5:30, but before that we enjoyed a free day at the world famous Circus in Baraboo! It was a blast to watch and wish we could of stayed longer, the girls lovedddd it, i did, until a random squirrel got lost in the bleachers and literally jumped by my feet and scratched my leg... freaky! And it was veryyy miserable hot out... 
We made it to our appt a few mins late but As of now he sees one baby in one sac, But still NO heartbeat (prob to early still) The ovarian Cyst is still there, but not growing!=) He believes right now, that the other "sacs" are "probably" now old tissue, (bc he cant see anything in the "sacs" and they look layered (which indicates blood?... He believes for now, its from my body possibly
 getting rid of whats not "viable" or needed?.. not real positive. He does expect i may bleed from my body trying to pass them.. So as of now we are still happy there is def A BABY growing! But we will still be keeping a good eye on everything with the pregnancy as of now. We have another ultrasound next Thursday evening. So by Thursday night we should see(hopefully) a beating heart! My hcg numbers are still rising well! So we believe there's going to be at least one blessing for us  I will admit i was very excited for Twins... but i believe god is providing the perfect child meet for our family!~ Thanks for your continued prayers! 

Ultrasound today at 5:30!

We are excited to be getting our Ultrasound today!!! This weekend i was feeling much better! My cyst didn't hardly bother me all weekend! Thank you Jesus!!! Thanks sooo much for the prayers <3
Although my mother in law decided to leave her cold here with us.. and im pretty sure I now have the start of a sinus infection =(  ...At least with her cold she is sitting in Mexico next to the Ocean! Poor Aspynn decided to stick her hand by a hot pan while i was making Sunday breakfast, and burned her wrist something terrible! Thank god for essential oils.. It looks pretty yucky right now =( But if we hadn't used some lavender im sure it would be much worse! I had to work all weekend, Dave did not. So he took the girls to their first experience at Tommy Bartletts Exploratory! (Dave has begged to go there since we moved here, its his childhood there) lol..
They had a blast there!!! He showed me many pictures and videos! Ill upload them later =)
As i was sitting in church yesterday i started to remember that God has brought me through so many things this last year. I had been on antidepressants and diagnosed bipolar since age 14. I meet an amazing woman of God, who has been a spiritual mother to me for a few years now. She posed a question to me after I got saved, "Why do you need pills to be "happy"?"... Although i believe some people have a health need to be on antidepressants, in my case.. I couldn't even figure out how to function in life without them. It took over a year for me to muster the courage to get off them. It was a scary choice for me because my husband wasn't on board with my decision and I knew my coping skills would be out of wack. It generally take 6 weeks or so to get all the medication out of your system. The words that rang in my head and still do from Leah are "Be  happy and live in the joy of the lord, its a choice to be happy!" I have days I still struggle to be in a good mood or have to simmer my temper. As of now i have been med free for 8 months! But what a victory for me! I am nervous to be hormonal and pregnant because i know it can more of a struggle to contain my emotions. And that's were I tell myself, I WILL pray when i am struggling, I will ask for prayer, and I will be thankful to Jesus for all he has done to allow me to live in joy!
I know all that's a bit of subject, but look at how Good God is!?! Just when I want to sulk or feel sorry for myself, i remind myself that I will be thankful for all the blessings he has given me ( and you!!)! I have had a few incidents pop up recently also that at first I wanted to be angry with someone for doing me wrong, or for them being malicious .. It was difficult for me at first but I prayed right then and there and told myself, The lord has shown me grace so many times, even when i didn't deserve it! I made the choice to show those people grace and forgive them right then and there. I know that if I show them grace, forgiveness, and love then just maybe it will help them know Jesus better or let him shine through me!
I also just need to say I believe with all my heart that through this pregnancy and the blessings God has in store for my family, we will Glorify all that he has done for us! I have obviously to much on my mind today, haha.... but anyhow, thanks for your continued prayers and support to our family! If there's prayer you need from us, please let us know! Id love to return prayer to your family!<3 Tonight we will let you all know how our appt went!!! God Bless! <3 Abbie

Friday, August 23, 2013

5wk 2d Preggers... Our story so far.... YES ITS LONG =)

Hello All!
 I figured this would maybe be the best way for us to keep our family and friends updated on our pregnancy. We went from trying to conceive for almost a year to having an emergency surgery, to remove a 7cm Cyst on my right ovary on July 16th , then trying to recover to find another cyst on my left ovary, on Aug 14th.
 On late Thursday night, 8/15, I took myself to the ER due to pain. After be administered pain medication, the doctor came in to ask me "Do you know your pregnant?" ... UM NO....(thank you dollar store for failing  me the day before with an at home test, lol) My Hcg numbers were 100ish. The doctor said i was obviously very early, and that it was a possibility we could be experiencing an eptopic pregnancy. UGH... i felt awful and cried because i was sure that's what was happening! We have experienced this once before conceiving Aspynn! My mother in law was on her way up from IL and came to the ER with me, while i got an U/S done. (worse U/S ever!! Lady was very rude!) It only showed that the cyst was still there and had not burst.  That night I told myself i would NOT SHARE our pregnancy with anyone but our close friends and family, so that in-case we miscarried I wouldn't have to explain to the FB world what happened. 
As i went to bed that night, I prayed about the whole situation. I asked God what he wanted me to do, I woke up the next morning with a clear agenda from the Lord, It was to ask for prayer from our prayers warriors! He spoke to me ""Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven. For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them."~ Matt 18:19-20 ... So i asked a great friend to help me put an announcement together. It turned out better than i could of Imagined! (Thanks Nicole Birthelmer!)
  On that Sunday Aug18th, I asked for prayer from my pastors, that my bloodwork (Hcg) would rise! I got the call late Sunday night from my awesome Nurse Practitioner, Renee, That my numbers were around 600! REMEMBER they want them to double every 48/72 hrs. WOW... I was sooo happy!!!  On Tuesday Aug 20th, we had another U/S to confirm our pregnancy ( next worse U/S... she wouldn't allow Dave or the girls to come back and wasn't very nice!). She would not tell me anything about the results or even show me the screen.
 Later that afternoon, I saw Dr.Shad (OB/gyn) He showed me all the pictures from my U/s. He told me he does not believe its a tubal pregnancy! He the said "There are 2 spots on the Uterus".... I replied "2 spots??" Of course i thought do you mean i have cancer or some abnormality??!... I know im a bit dramatic, lol... 
He replied "Yes, possibility 2 sacs." ...................HOLD UP.... "So it could be TWINS????!!!"... 
"Umm, yes.. of course we need to wait to see heartbeats." ...
I sat down and said.. "SHUT THE FRONT DOOR!.. I seriously could be having twins, holy moly..." 
Im pretty sure i was about to faint at this point!
I really just need to say, Dr.Shad is probably the most amazing doctor all around i have EVER dealt with! He is very caring, compassionate, emphatic, and for the 1st time ever, he NEVER said "viable" pregnancy.. I highly dislike that word ;( .
He explained he wanted to do an U/S at his office (almost an hour from my home) So he could rule out a tubal on Monday 8/26 @5:30pm. In Sauk City. He of course reminded me that It is possible that the Second sac can be empty. I replied to him " Ill take whatever gift god sees fit for me to have, if thats one or two!" 
Now i have to be honest ... i was very nervous to call my husband to tell him we could possibly be having TWO babies! I don't normally call him at work.. but I FELT it was needed, lol.. .he took it pretty well! And bc i had to work that day.. i posted on Facebook of what was going on so i could ask for prayer & spread the news quicker without overloading my phone while trying to work!
The next day Wednesday, Aug 21st, I had my blood drawn again. My numbers... 3,600!!!!! WOW! So by Thursday its all sunk in, we are most likely bringing home not one but TWO babies!! 
My first thoughts are how in the world am i going to be able to afford TWO!  Or if i go on bedrest (like w/ my previous pregnancy's) who is going to help me? Or how can i find a 3/4 bedroom home before babies are born and still afford it! ..... all the normal fleshly questions... And i am a bit emotional/hormonal.. so my worry was on overdrive!..
But after talking with a few good woman, i was reminded... GOD PROVIDES! And when i least expect it.. I know somehow some way he will provide for our family! 
The prayers for my pain had been working.. until 3am on Friday Aug 23rd... My pain just got severely worse ;( I drove myself to the ER, Dave to the girls to my besties, Janessa's home... and we got started with IVs, zofran, NO PAIN meds.. and heat packs... MY FAVORITE U/S tech, Becky(super sweet!), came in and started our U/S... she showed me the 2 sacs again.. explaining that one def looked like we see  baby.. the other.. not a positive yes.. and the '3RD SAC um well.. it could be maybe empty or fluid filled".. 
Theres for sure one, maybe  two.. and a possible third!!!!!...... I'm beyond words. My 1st thought is, well i asked for it!.. If you look back at my Fb picture of our announcement i asked for prayers that our numbers wouldn't just double but triple fold.... uff duh!...  and my Hcg number today, 8,200!!! 
So the cyst has NOT burst... last week it was 12mm in size, this week 2.51cm.. good news... today.. it hasn't grown! 
So PRAY that it goes away and stops hurting would be super! And that i can make it thought the weekend at work! Monday we PRAY we can see heartbeats to confirm, babies in sacs!  Just pray whatever HIS will is... is what will be done! THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR PRAYERS AND SUPPORT Y'ALL <3